|About the Book|
When I phoned my mom a week before Christmas Eve and told her I was looking forward to spending the holidays with the family, I honestly meant it this year. For the first time since I could remember, I was smiling at the thought of going back toMoreWhen I phoned my mom a week before Christmas Eve and told her I was looking forward to spending the holidays with the family, I honestly meant it this year. For the first time since I could remember, I was smiling at the thought of going back to Asshat, USA for a few days. Though I was still waiting for my real adult life to begin, I knew my young adult life in Asshat was over for good.After years of hard work, Id finally graduated and landed my first authentic-paying position as a veterinarian in an emergency clinic the previous August, and I hadnt been back home since Easter. Id grown up in a small town about four hours northwest of Philadelphia. In high school, a group of us had nicknamed the little town, Asshat, USA and it stuck with me all these years.In Philadelphia, Id shared a dingy college apartment near University City with various guys for almost seven years, including a full-time lover. I wasnt one of those students who went home every weekend. I only went when it was absolutely necessary.Ever since I left home for college, going back to Asshat for the Christmas holidays always filled me with anxiety and made me feel trapped. It was as if that little town was a magnet, and it was sucking me back with a force too hard to resist. I experienced nightmares two days before I left Philadelphia. My heart raced at the thought of being locked in Asshat forever, working alongside my dad in his small veterinary practice, waiting to die a long, slow death.Landing my new job at the twenty-four hour emergency clinic had helped dissipate my fears. Now, I had my own studio apartment in Philadelphia, a few bucks in my pocket for the first time in my life, and I was going back home as an adult, not a needy student.This realization made a huge difference, knowing that youre completely self-sufficient and no one can tell you what to do anymore. Though youre not a complete adult yet, youre on your way. When you know youre going home for just a visit and nothing more, your childhood bedroom starts to take on an endearing, nostalgic appeal instead of a depressing, confined look that tightens your chest and makes you want to heave chunks.